Winter Doldrums

Here it is, the last day of January, and I find myself in a funk. I escaped fairly unscathed throughout the Christmas season, but the winter blahs are here. Today has been gray, so gray and ugly outside. Cold, dank, miserable, definitely an unfriendly sort of a day. My mood has suffered. I did not go to work, I just hung out in the never never land of yuk.

I think when I start my new job, that I will feel better. More purpose, more direction, less "choices" to sluff off if you will. It is just too easy to stay home from work right now. There isn't much to do, and I am no longer "critical" to the operation. Or what have you. My manager is very easy.

Tomorrow, before I head up to work, I have a "tour" scheduled of the "Rainbow Center", a childcare facility that I may apply for yet another job. I just landed one, haven't started it, but am trying for a different one already. Well, I would be a fool not to, it pays considerably more, and I could take college classes for free. And I love that.

I know what the problem is, I am in limbo!!!!!! I have too many incompletes, too much unfinished business! Well, duh! I need to finish this job and get on to the next. I need to wrap up my big D, and get it all finished! I need to do the taxes, and get the medical bills paid off! I need to move on with my life!

Geez! I feel better already! That is really kind of funny. It took putting it down in writing before it clicked, and yet it was so obvious, really.

Now, a swift kick in the ass, and I will get started!